The-late-updated-post: Exam vs Ramadhan

17/7/2012

Bismillahirrahmaanirrahim. In the name of Allah, The Most Gracious, The Most Merciful.

Assalammu’alaikum. May peace be upon you. J

Alhamdulillah, with rahmah from Allah I’ve been given another chance to breath and live in His world, ad-dunya.

Masha Allah wa (and) subhanallah, there is few days left for Ramadhan and university’s exam. Either I pictured what I felt here or kept it in my heart, He knows everything. And He alone, knows and understood me better than myself. T_T.

“Dan rahsiakanlah perkataanmu atau nyatakanlah. Sungguh, Dia Maha Mengetahui segala isi hati.” [67:13]

And  the next verse He said:

“Apakah (pantas) Allah yang menciptakan itu tidak mengetahui? Dan, Dia Maha Halus, Maha Mengetahui.” [67:14]

I don’t know why. But now, I feel like crying. When we feel so, we’ll try to find something that consoles our heart very much.

“(yaitu) orang-orang yang berimandan hati mereka menjadi tenteram dengan mengingati Allah. Ingatlah, dengan mengingati Allah hati menjadi tenteram. [13:28]

See, Allah gives us various ways to console our misery heart. This is one of the ways. Yeah, like I said earlier, when everyone happily countdown for Ramadhan, we also countdown for uni’s exam though in India we gonna start fasting a day later compared to Malaysia.

Frankly speaking, I’m verily, literally and and and seriously feel excited about this coming Ramadhan! Alhamdulillah, thanks Allah for giving me such feeling. I never feel like this before. But but but, I’m soooooooo worry my preparation for uni’s examination will overtake the Ramadhan!.

Okay, let’s have a look at seerah Rasulullah s.a.w during this month of barakah. What’s the most remarkable situations happened towards muslim during those days.

THE FIRST BATTLE against kafirun in islam! What’s the name? PERANG BADAR!!

Now, can you see the significance / similarities of their and our situation? Naa, not OUR but ME, my situation. Oh, maybe you also faced the same situation. Mereka berjihad di jalan Allah, dan kami juga! #inshaAllah. Their battle was against non-muslim whom opposed islam. But, ours is different. But the root is the same. Jihad fi sabilillah. 

If you wanna know more about Perang Badar, google / find any history books which storied bout it. Oh, it also had been storied in Quran. Easy right? Open your Quran, and read Surah Al-Imran and many more. I’m pretty sure you guys know better than me. J

Sorry, I’m kinda in rush and can’t write very much the details because I’ve pile of topics need to be covered within this short time. All of above, I should only and fully RELY ON ALLAH and SUBMIT myself thoroughly and firmly to Him. He knows what’s behind and what’s in front of us.

“… Dia mengetahui apa yang di hadapan dan apa yang di belakang mereka, dan mereka tidak mengetahui sesuatu apa pun tentang ilmu-Nya melainkan apa yang Dia kehendaki…” [2:255]

Seems familiar with this meaning? It is in ayatul kursi. The one verse which we repeatedly reading after every solah, before going to sleep and etc. this verse also shown that we, human are powerless and knowledge-less without His mercy. Well, Allah is The Most Merciful. So, be close to Him, obey His orders and He’ll grant your wish at ease. InshaAllah.

Well, bear this in our mind. ‘The remembrance of Allah towards us is depends on how much we remember him’.

“Maka ingatlah kepada-Ku, Aku pun akan mengingti-Mu. Bersyukurlah kepada-Ku, dan janganlah kamu ingkar kepada-Ku” [2:152]

You shall not forget about Him. NEVER EVER. If you forgot about Him, go and seek for other place to live in. I bet! You won’t find any.

Here, I left you with a quote which left me in a very deep thought, inshaAllah:

“Janganlah kamu singkatkan masa yang sememangnya sudah singkat dengan perkara yang melalaikan dan sia-sia”

Happy Ramadhan to all and please pray for our success. Allah will pay your good deeds and intentions.

Jazakumullahu khairan kathira. J

*PSSSTTTT: Allahuakbar, mashaAllah, Alhamdulillah… I don’t know how much to thank Allah. Right after I wrote this, I went out to study in my friend’s room since the homesick & stress syndrome governing my emotion. When I locked the door, someone stuck a photo against the door.

It’s written:

“Allah s.w.t listens and already knows what is in your heart. But, He wants you to ask Him for what you want.” [2:186]

I broke into tears again. T_T.

See, Allah hears me. He sent someone to give me a verse from Quran which sort of soothed me A LOT. What else I could say? MashaAllah, Allahuakbar, Alhamdulillah, Subhanallah.

~He is sooooo sweet and the Most Sweetest!~

Thanks for reading.

Jazakumullahu khairan kathira. :)

I'm home!

Bismillahirrahmannirrahim...

Assalammu'alaikum w.b.t. May peace be upon you. :)

Alhamdulillah, I reached home yesterday evening after going through the unforgettable experiences. Allah arranged our life in the most beautiful ways according to our needs and abilities. Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah.

This would be my first entry after final university's examination. I did blog during that moment but it can't be updated as my internet connection has been expired. So,I just simply wrote something and saved in my lappy.

I came back with 'flying colors'. Alhamdulillah, with Allah's helped I managed to get D (distinction) for all the 4 subjects. Anatomy, Physiology, Biochemistry and Oral Biology. Despite all the sadness and refuse-ness (ade ke word ni?). Yeah, I did refuse to go to the distinction's viva.

You wanna know why?

Okay. Morning, started around 8.00 or 8.30 from 1st to 4th of August, we had practical exam for each subject. It was held after theory papers which were on 21st to 27th of August. So, we had 4 days gap between theory papers and practical exams. Our practical exam ended the latest by 11.00 a.m.

The distinction viva's list was put up on the notice board by 11.30 to 12.30 p.m. And it will be started from 1.30 p.m onwards. Since our batch has 73 students, they divided us into 2 big groups: Batch A and Batch B.

I was the Batch A student. Thank God because in my batch they were quite number of students qualified for distinction viva compared to the other batch. Because of that, we had been subdivided into 2 groups; again, Batch A and Batch B. I was in the 2nd batch.

Alhamdulillah. Because for 2nd batch, the viva started at 2.30p.m. So, I could enjoy performing my zuhur prayer calmly and had longer time to study the theory parts. That's the pros. The cons were we had longer waiting time, experienced butterfly in the stomach longer and got lesser time to study for tomorrow papers since there's no gap in between practical exams.

1st day - Anatomy. 
Cuak itu ada. But, I knew Allah will help me. So, no worries. I can't answer all the questions since I don't have vast knowledge about anatomy. I loved the subject but it was the hardest to score. Because I don't like memorizing. My brain stuffed. In spite all, I enjoyed it! Seriously. Gonna miss Anatomy in 2nd year and identifying the structures through pak cik cadavers.

2nd day - Physiology.
The shortest viva ever!! Alhamdulillah. They had a stopwatch. 5 minutes per person, I guessed. I was a bit worried for this because last time my Physio's viva wasn't really good like the roll number before and after me. They did very well. Ok, the most embarrassed things was, I couldn't answer 'What is menstrual cycle?'. LOL! It happened to me every month and yet I didn't know what it is. The examiner and lecturers were laughing. Hahaha. They tried to help. I did reckon something in my mind, but I didn't utter it.

3rd day - Biochemistry.
2 days continuously having vivas were quite tiring. ;'( The external examiner asked me things which I didn't bother much. The biochem viva was seriously, a killer. Heh. They didn't ask direct question like Physio. Pusing-pusing. They wanted to test you whether or not you understood the concepts. And what's made me more terrific was, the examiners didn't laugh with me. They put a serious faced and made me feel like 'I gave them bad answers'. Anyhow, alhamdulillah I passed.

4th day - Oral Biology.
Okay, this time seriously seriously seriously I DON'T WANNA GO!. I didn't prepare anything! And the lecturer already gave us an alarm 'for distinction viva, she won't ask you anything from the theory parts. please read the clinical considerations'. Hah, amek kau! Nervousness to death. Called the senior asked what happened to those who didn't go for the D viva. The dental's dean and lecturer ran after you. Lol. I've no choice,but to GO. I read the books roughly. Scanned what can be scanned through my laser eyes (poyo). Yeah, she asked me about mastication. I didn't read anything about it. Just applied my knowledge. And sadly, the lecturer asked me the theory part about maxillary sinus. =.=' Saya tak baca langsung kot pasal tu. How come I could answer.

Well, all these viva took along my fat(?). No! I guessed it catabolized my muscle. When you stressed, it will stimulate the Acetylcholinesterase Hormone(ACTH) to be secreted from adrenal cortex. Because ACTH is an anti-stress hormone. But, it also causes protein catabolism inside our body. This doesn't mean I want to bragging the knowledge that I have, but I should applied it in my daily life. My knowledge is not merely for exam but beyond that that.

Same goes to you too,people. :) Thanks for reading.

Salam 10 terakhir Ramadhan..

Jazakumullah khairan kathira....

Couple? Ape tuh?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Assalammu'alaikum w.b.t

Apekah itu couple?

Oh, sebenarnya tak da perancangan pun nk tulis pasal ni. But after I read a blog recommended by a friend on fb, it triggered me to write my view on this mushy and slushy thing. Ahak!

This is merely a review from a not-yet-21-years-old girl who had encountered such thing before. During my lower form (haha,kecik-kecik lagi da gatai meghenyam). Erk? Lol. It's not something to be proud of but it's a SHAMEFUL ACT.

At least I learnt my lesson,ain't it? Allah uji sekali. Dan alhamdulillah saya belajar drpd situ,gradually. As i grow up, I become more matured(?) and understand the purpose of my life. 

Ok, menjawap kpd soalan di atas,pd saya dan org kebanyakan couple itu adalah hubungan antara lelaki dan perempuan yang kebiasannya sebelum berkahwin. Lebih spesifik, sebelum bertunang.

Apakah yang anda cari/mengharap daripada hubungan sebegini? I have an elder sister and a younger sister. My elder sister possesses one. She never coupled before till she reached 18/19/20(?). I don't remember. She asked me once before, 'Is it fun to have a couple?'. Naa, sorry. I don't remember my answer. If I'm not mistaken, she was asking after I broke off. So, my possible answer is 'No. It's not. You made sinS from it. It's tiring because why you wanna sacrifice for someone who is certainly not yours?' this is a bit exaggerated =.='. Regardless of this matter, she still get along with that guy.

My younger one. Haha. She got a lot. She loves to socialize with people and sooooooo friendly. A bit opposite from me. No matter how much I advised her, she still enjoying having 'couple'. I guess she's not yet matured. Hopefully, she'll get a good and pious husband who'll lead her to jannah. InshaAllah. :) 

Me? Haha. Frankly speaking, I got one before. Once is more than enough to give me tremendous lessons. Thanks to Allah for woke me up from a long deep sleep. Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. It's such a wake up call!! You know what, once you love someone that means you breached your heart to be hurt. *It's a quote*. When I broke off, I started to think of why do I loved this guy. Why don't I love the One who created this guy? I turned to Him. Allah. Seek for his mercy and refugees. I felt having a boyfriend is such a waste. Wasting your Money, Time, Energy and etc. Don't you think so? 

Ok, let me bring you to a deep thinking.

• Who gave you the money? ALLAH. And why don't you spend it properly? I mean,used your money for the sake of Allah. Allah provides it via our parents. Why we spend hours talking on the phone with our bf/gf, while we barely spend few minutes to talk to them instead?
• Who equipped  you energy? ALLAH. And why don't you utilized it for His sake? Worshiping Him day and night. Make all your actions as Ibadah. From these, you'll earn rewards (pahala) which very useful and helpful for entering His jannah (paradise).
• Who provide you time? ALLAH. And is it okay if you forgot Him? He is our Sustain-er, Provider. He gives us 24 hours a day and how many hours did we allocate to remember Him? 30minutes? 1 hour or 2? Only during solat? We cry upon quarreled with him/her. But did we cry regretting for our sinful acts?

Think3~ 

What you got from remembering the so-called lover/partner? Did he/she gives you adequate love,care,attention? No, right? That's why you always demand more from him/her. Oh, the most important is 'don't you think having a couple will lead you to hell?' We inevitably increasing our sins from it. We're in a great loss! Control our temptations/nafs properly. 

Turn to Allah. Filled our heart with love and remembrance of Allah. My mum once said, 'If there's a guy I placed in my heart, then the knowledge won't enter your heart easily.' Why? Because we unconsciously, dirtied our heart with black dots. Ilmu itu ibarat cahaya, dan ia tidak akan memasuki hati yang kotor. That's why sometimes we feel it's really hard to understand or memorize even the simple one. I'm very open towards my parents. I showed them whom I liked. The above shows my mum reaction towards it. Haha. Okay, mum..ai ai, captain!

While I was engaged with this sinful act, Allah gave me lots of victory and triumph. I wasn't realized it before. I was such an ungrateful slave. Well, like I told in the previous entry, kadang-kadang ujian yang Allah berikan kepada kita adalah sama, cuma dalam bentuk yg berbeza apabila kita tidak belajar dari ujian yang pertama. 

Contoh: orang yang dah banyak kali ber'couple but still fall in a long deep sleep. WAKE UP PEOPLE! Don't be deceived by dunya and syaitan. Allah tests you with the same trial but through different people you've coupled with. so, turn to Him before its too late --> KIAMAT. You still got time!! :)

Why? Somehow you worry if there won't be anyone to marry with? Believe in Allah. But remember, you need to put some effort before leave the rest to Allah. Such as a du'a. He'll assign the best partner for you. No worries ^_^.

Sesungguhnya, hati setiap manusia dipegang oleh Allah. Berdoalah serta bertawakkal kepada-Nya. Rely on Him. He won't disappoint you. Seriously! 

Thanks for reading. 

#p/s: this is merely my opinions. Either to be agreed or not, it's up to u. :)

Jazakumullahu khaiyran kathira.

Tarbiyah I

Bismillah as-rahman ar-rahim..

Assalammu'alaikum w.b.t


Well, so much things happened nowadays which inhibit me form blogging. (Duh, macam la suka ber'blog). Macam-macam perkara yang berlaku tidak kira suka, duka, gembira, sedih, menangis, marah, rindu, sayang n etc. No matter how hard we tried to do the best, if Allah forbids you can do nothing. 


Oh, based on the title for this new entry the last sentence doesn't show the situation that I was in. Especially the pre-comma sentence (ayat sebelum koma). Before that, let me explained to you about the types of trials.


This is based on what I've listened to Ustaz Pahrol tazkirah at ikim.fm.


Secara asasnya, ujian yang datang menimpa kita adalah dalam 3 bentuk:

     1.  BALA

• Iaitu ujian yang diturunkan kepada orang yang jahat/kurang baik ketika dia sedang melakukan kejahatan.
• Sebagai contoh: Seorang pencuri, ketika sedang mencuri Allah takdirkan dia ditembak oleh polis, lalu cedera parah / more severe mati.
• Naudzubillah. Semoga kita dijauhkan drpd ujian sebegini kerana ianya tampak hina di dunia mahupun akhirat.

    
    2.  KIFARAH DOSA

• Iaitu ujian yang diturunkan kepada seorang hamba yang baik, jarang melakukan kemaksiatan tetapi semasa dia melakukan maksiat, ujian pun datang.
• Sebagai contoh: Seorang pemuda yang baik budi/amalnya pergi dating dengan awek dia. Naik kereta sama-sama and then accident. (Ke exaggerate sgt? ok, I cant think of a better example for this)
• Ujian seperti ini tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah untuk menghapuskan dosa si pelaku dosa. 
• Ujian yang kedua ni, paling banyak berlaku di antara kita.

    
    3.  UJIAN UNTUK MENINGGKATKAN DARJAT DISISI ALLAH

• For this type of trial, sorry I couldn't hear properly what's the name. Ustaz ckp laju sgt, tak dapat nak tangkap as it was the first time I heard the noun. (Takda la laju sgt, tp saya lampi)
• Ujian ini adalah untuk meningkatkan darjat seseorang disisi Allah.
• Sebagai contoh: Orang yg beriman dlm perjalanan menuju ke masjid dan ditakdirkan oleh Allah, dia kemalangan semasa dlm perjalanan.
• Okay, this kind of trial what we should desire the most! Sapa tak nak dinaikkan taraf/darjat di sisi Allah. Tuhan sekelian alam!

Faham? Atau ada sebarang keraguan? Feel free to ask the expertise in this field. Jangan malu untuk bertanya, nanti sesat jalan =.='

Ustaz ckp, dalam hidup manusia ni bermacam-macam ujian yang menimpa kita. Kadang-kadang ujian tu sama cuma dalam bentuk yg berbeza. Sekali Allah turunkan ujian, haruslah kita belajar/mengambil pelajaran terhadap ujian tersebut. Ulamak mengatakan ujian Allah ibarat batu-batu kecil, tapi pabila seseorang individu itu tidak belajar dari ujian itu,maka Allah turunkan yang BESAR (ustaz ckp batu bata).

Okay, I'll give example based on my experience. Just to give an idea and trigger your mind to think how sweet it is tarbiyah directly from Allah. Allah is The Greatest Murabbi! :)

Hari isnin minggu lepas, kami ada exam practical Biochemistry. Nak dijadikan cerita, the day before exam tu,I didn't read the books and notes whole-heartedly. Sempat lagi buat marathon Nodame Cantabelle (don't know how to spell, asl ade bunyi). Bajet macam sempat la nak abis baca semua from night till the next morning since the exam was started at 9a.m. Dah la msuk from Block 1 till Block 4. Orang berlagak pandai memang macam ni. Serve me right, ain't it? Pendekkan cerita, the exam was held in 2 sessions at different places. 

1st session the questions were projected through LCD and the 2nd one was performance which held in our Practical Lab. Okay, I'm pretty sure you guys could figure out what had happened to me. I CAN'T ANSWER THE QUESTIONS!  I was like starring at the questions and said to myself 'oh my goodness,I should revised the previous blocks paper and and and do the revision thoroughly! T_T BANGGG! padan muka100x!  

Baiklah, situasi di atas adalah ibarat BATU BATA (or even bigger than this). Allah dah baling dah diri ni dgn batu-batu kecil. Tapi, sebab hamba dia ni lam-pi (LAMbat PIck up) tu yang hentak dgn batu besar. Bagi rasa sikit. I've learnt my lessons. InshaAllah.

Cerita di atas adalah contoh semata-mata. Mungkin anda ada cerita yang lagi merobek hati yang membuat kan you returned to Allah immediately after that. Basically, ustaz ckp kita harus tahu dan faham ujian dan takdir Allah supaya kita boleh mngurus takdir kita selari dgn takdir Allah. InshaAllah.

#sekarang tgh mood exam. Doakan saya dan rakan2. We're currently sitting for our Final Block 4 exam and on 21st July our final university exam will be started. Laluilah hari-hari kita dengan mempelajari tarbiyah Allah yg ditakdirkan utk kita setiap hari. Learn and don't give up. Allah always be by our side. :)

See, we're not alone. Don't be afraid. Remember Allah wherever
we go. ^_^

Allah knows what suit you the best! He give you the way,
and it depends on your choice! So, choose wisely!

Jazakumullahu khaiyran kathira.....

Hectic Week?

As-salamu 'alaikum w.b.t (May peace be upon you)


Bismi Allahi Ar-rahman Ar-rahim. :)


Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah. He still gives me a chance to live in His world and repent for my wrongdoings. For your information, I'm not sleep yet and surprisingly I didn't feel sleepy. Nevertheless, I don't have any idea what's going to happen to me few hours later.


Next week gonna be a very hectic week, I guessed because our daily schedule was packed with OSPE (practical examination), class tests, viva and PBL (problem based learning). EVERYDAY! Actually, we've encountered similar situation before and it wasn't that hectic. Alhamdulillah. Allah ease our way. 
Hoping for the best next week. After you have loaded lots of effort, you should leave the rest to Allah. In sha Allah. He'll determines what suits you very well.


Naa, I'm not in the mood of writing. Just wanna 'boasting' bout my hectic schedule next week. Here's the list:

1. Monday : OSPE Physiology for Block IV final (will be conducted similar to Uni's exam).
2. Tuesday : Prosthodontics viva about teeth arrangement, landmarks and articulators.
3. Wednesday : Oral biology class test (essay regarding odontogenesis = tooth development)
4. Thursday : OSPE Oral Biology including Block I and IV.
5. Friday : PBL Biochemistry (need to understand and memorize all the contents of learning objectives)
6. Saturday : Class test Physiology (which is supposed to be on Friday but we postponed it to Saturday)
7. Sunday : the one and only day left for us to 'rest' after fulfilled the schedule.

Well, that's life! Allah knows that we're capable to overcome such hectic schedule. So, no worries as long as you have Allah in your heart. Don't simply consigned everything to Allah. Instead, we need to put tremendous efforts in every single thing we did. Because basically Allah will grants us according or based on our efforts.

Okay, from now on. Let's strive towards excellence! :) :)

Jazakumullahu khaiyran kathseera. 

Wallahu a'alam.

My life is full of misery(?)

Assalamu 'alaikum w.b.t, may peace be upon you... :)


Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim..


This is my second entry of the day. Heh, first time ever..I just wanna share something which running in my head and stuffed my heart. Something that make me feel stress and tension. I don't even know how to put it in words. I know Allah has assigned our life before we're coming to this world even before we live in intrauterine life.

But somehow I felt like we couldn't simply say "Oh, I was becoming like this because of Allah's will. It's a fate and can't be changed." And the worst is if we put the BLAME ON Allah.


Lets us have a deeply thought about it. Okay, we might allowed to say the phrase when it comes to crucial decision which will lead for the rest of your life (say it when u feel it is suitable depending upon the situation which you were in). For example, the course that we've chosen after we finished high school. This is based on my personal experience. I applied for medic but Allah destined me for dentistry course. In sha Allah, I'll pass this course with flying colors and become someone beneficial for ummah.


Along with the destined and chosen path, Allah tested us everyday. He tested our imaan every split seconds. Day by day our level of imaan keeps changing either INCREASED or DECREASED (Na'udzubillah). We don't know and incapable to discovered how imaan is measured. Today we might doing lots of good deeds. Better than yesterday. But we don't have any idea about what is going to happen tomorrow. And we seek for Allah guidance, ask for His mercy. If our today is worst than yesterday, then we're in a great loss!


If we rewound our daily life's tape not by pressing the rewind button but by using the most important center of our body, Mr. Brain every night before we sleep or list down every single thing which we've done all day long (if you dare enough), we could determine how many good or bad things that we did. It is SELF-REFLECTION. But please don't miss out our minor actions such as had negative thought towards someone which remained in our mind and not expressed.


A productive muslim will plans his/her day before the day start. Guess what, it inevitably helps you to be more discipline and responsible. Even our five pillars of islam also helps us in building our personality in various ways, Masha Allah. In sha Allah, I'll explain bout it in my next entry.


In a nutshell, if you feel bad or lost interest in doing anything seek for Allah's helps and refugees. Ask for His forgiveness because He is the most Forgiven. If you feel there is no hope, believe in Allah. He always with us. He's keeping his eyes on us. And His angels, Raqib and Atid followed His orders, writing every single action that we did whether good or bad.


*The contents might not suit the title very well. My life is such in misery right now. I don't know how to express it. But what I knew is Allah knows and understands me more than myself. Because it is impossible for Allah to not know about His creations thoroughly.


Thanks for reading.
Jazakumullahu khaiyran katsira. :)

Shy to live, Decline to dead(?)

Asslammu 'alaikum. :)

As the title framed, this blog has been neglect for about 2 months without any new entry even a short one. =.='


Like I mentioned before, 'writhing ain't my passion'..Well, what came to my mind was "If you not engrossed in writing, why you created this blog?  Come on, man (though i'm a girl).." 


What catalyst me to start writing again was my friend. Hahaha. She said she viewed my blog and only had 'one' entry. Okay, correction. I had TWO entries la. Heh, it's not something to be proud of.


This is going to be a short and simple entry. Just wanna make the THIRD one (showing some improvement). In sha Allah, I'll blog more useful entries after this. 


Let's use our precious time to the fullest. Filled it with necessary things. This is merely to remind my own self. Because I'm a short-memory-person. Especially, when it is related to my faith. 


May Allah grants us steadfastness on worshiping Him and struggling defense our imaan. In sha Allah.


Jazakumullahu khairan katsira. :)