Say something..

                          

A phrase in a song.

Sometimes, I like to sketch.

I love something abstract.

I'm no an artist.

Nor someone who's artistic.

But,

I believe each and every person has their artistic side.

Maybe not in painting, but in knitting,

Or in other area which you master.

Ok, now I think what I wrote wasn't correlate with the picture.

Haha. Well,

Truth is, the discomfort-ness worsening.

I guess so.

I feel easily get irritated,

Do not like to talk,

Do not like to eat much. But I do eat A LOT.

Haha. Idk how to expressed the discomfort through painting as I'm not that creative. 

Ok, that's all for now.

The urge inside me

I need to start writing.

I need to carve my thought anywhere.

So that I'll remember what are my thoughts every now and then.

For that reason,

I need a privacy.

It's good to have many followers.

But sometimes,

I wanna post something confidential for my own self.

Need not others to know what's exactly happening to me.

As for now, 

I could say, I'm in the worst state everrr.

In a state of confusion,

But I'd make a decision.

Somehow apparently I feel lost and inadequate.

I crave for more.

I wanna search about You and Your messenger more.

I wanna seriously making up with You.

I know,

To be special in Your eyes, 

I need to let go many things,

If those things could gain Your blessing,

I'm on it. 

O Allah, give me strength to fight against myself.

Against my nafs,

Innaka ni'kmal maula wa ni'k mannashir. 

Ameen ya rabbal 'alamin.

Hye 😉😉😉

It has been months since my last post here.

Too many things had happened.

Our life is a tarbiyah from Allah.

From He we came, and to Him we shall return.

Third year of dentistry,

The fourth year I'm knowing my Lord and religion.

All the bitter sweet moments,

All the sinful acts,

All the act of repentance,

They've been recorded by the angels, 

Raqib and Atid.

This gonna be a long journey,

Journey to meet our Maker.

Don't stop run into Him,

Keep moving on,

Because our present lifestyle will determine our future.

Aku Pelik dengan...

Ehemm.
Entry ini bukan nak mengutuk,
Tapi lebih kepada pemikiran dan monolog dalaman aku terhadap satu pemerhatian.

Aku pelik dengan orang yang duduk kat rumah,
Tapi tak buat kerja rumah.
Contohnya, mengemas rumah, sapu sampah, mop lantai, basuh bilik air and list goes on.

Why? Why? Why?
Oh why she acted like that?

Tak kan tak pernah terfikir nak berbakti kot?
Bukan aku nk cakap aku rajin ke apa,
*Sebab aku tahu aku kurang rajinnya berbanding kakak*
Eh yeke?

Dan aku pun,
Malas lah nak mbebel macam murai tercabut ekor.
Daripada dua-dua sakit hati,
Baik aku buat kerja sorang-sorang dgn aman lagi tenang.
Aiwah. \O.O/
Tak bazir air liur,
Kurang dosa. In shaa Allah.

Hmm,
Hidup ni bukan ngadap laptop, update twitter je.
Okay?
Tak pernah terfikir ke nak berbakti pada mak and ayah?
Tak rasa pape ke kalau tak buat kerja rumah?

Kalau aku,
Jujur cakap, rasa bersalah kot.
Tengok rumah bersepah,
Lagi satu,
Merujuk kepada entry yang lepas
Aku kurang gemar kalau mak aku balik kerja bising rumah bersepah.

Ohoi,
Tak tahan telingo den nak tadah.
Bulih pecah dado nahan sakitnyo.
#Err, bahasa ape lak ni?
Nogoghi.

Ok, cukup lah membebel.
Nak pegi pasar malam!
Da lamo den tak ke sano.
Tapi tak taw la kot mok den poie ko idok.

Few reasons why sometimes I hate to be at home

Fuhhh.
Uhuk. Uhuk. Uhuk.

Alhamdulillah, now I'm home.

A place of happiness, laughter, and bla bla bla.

Well sometimes I just don't like to be at home.
Why?

A daie shouldn't remain at home.
He/She need to go out.
Mingle with the society.
Detect the problem facing by the community.
And try to help them out.

The most important,
Spread the true message about Islam.

Thousands out there still doesn't understand Islam as a whole.
Me too.
I'm still in the phase of learning.
BUT,
With this little knowledge I have,
I need to tell the world.

Oh, yeah.
I forgot.
It should be started at home.
Spread the understanding to your relatives.
Allah had mention in Quran about this.
Couldn't agree more.

So, whats the problem here?

T_T

I rarely stay at home for a long period.
Except during semester break.
Yeah, now I'm toxicated.

If being at home will add my sins,
I prefer to go out.
Serious talk here.

But,
You should take it as a tarbiyah from Allah.
If u live for Allah,
You won't be disappointed by others' reactions towards you.

If you know you got scolded because Allah let it happened to be,
You'll feel relief.
Because you deeply understand the root of these trials and tribulations.

Ok, now.
Did you fell relief?

In shaa Allah.
O Allah, borrow me Your strength.
Because You are al-qawiy.

Enough,
Go and get the mop.
Start doing house chores.

Salam Ramadhan

Assalammu'alaikum w.b.t.

Dah sekian lama saya tak menjenguk ke blog yang usang + hampir nazak ni. Hehe.

Sungguh, dakwah dan pelajaran membutuhkan masa saya lebih dari blog ni.

Since I'm not a pro blogger like APG yang selalu ada idea yang mencurah-curah ke ladang gandum. Kagum dengan beliau yang boleh istiqomah dalam ber-bloging dalam kesibukan berdakwah. Tahniah!

Ok,sekarang dalam mood study week untuk university examination yang bakal berlangsung pada hari Isnin depan. Doakan saya dan kawan-kawan! :)

Akhir kata, Salam Ramadhan. May this Ramadhan far more better than the previous one. Siapa anda selepas Ramdhan, bagaimana tahap iman anda selepas Ramadhan, semua ini berlaku mengikut tahapan iman anda.

Selamat berpesta ibadah!

Moga Allah sentiasa merahmati dan memberkati kita, in shaa Allah.

Wasalam.