Saturday, 2 June 2012

My life is full of misery(?)

Assalamu 'alaikum w.b.t, may peace be upon you... :)


Bismillah Ar-Rahman Ar-Rahim..


This is my second entry of the day. Heh, first time ever..I just wanna share something which running in my head and stuffed my heart. Something that make me feel stress and tension. I don't even know how to put it in words. I know Allah has assigned our life before we're coming to this world even before we live in intrauterine life.



But somehow I felt like we couldn't simply say "Oh, I was becoming like this because of Allah's will. It's a fate and can't be changed." And the worst is if we put the BLAME ON Allah.


Lets us have a deeply thought about it. Okay, we might allowed to say the phrase when it comes to crucial decision which will lead for the rest of your life (say it when u feel it is suitable depending upon the situation which you were in). For example, the course that we've chosen after we finished high school. This is based on my personal experience. I applied for medic but Allah destined me for dentistry course. In sha Allah, I'll pass this course with flying colors and become someone beneficial for ummah.


Along with the destined and chosen path, Allah tested us everyday. He tested our imaan every split seconds. Day by day our level of imaan keeps changing either INCREASED or DECREASED (Na'udzubillah). We don't know and incapable to discovered how imaan is measured. Today we might doing lots of good deeds. Better than yesterday. But we don't have any idea about what is going to happen tomorrow. And we seek for Allah guidance, ask for His mercy. If our today is worst than yesterday, then we're in a great loss!


If we rewound our daily life's tape not by pressing the rewind button but by using the most important center of our body, Mr. Brain every night before we sleep or list down every single thing which we've done all day long (if you dare enough), we could determine how many good or bad things that we did. It is SELF-REFLECTION. But please don't miss out our minor actions such as had negative thought towards someone which remained in our mind and not expressed.


A productive muslim will plans his/her day before the day start. Guess what, it inevitably helps you to be more discipline and responsible. Even our five pillars of islam also helps us in building our personality in various ways, Masha Allah. In sha Allah, I'll explain bout it in my next entry.


In a nutshell, if you feel bad or lost interest in doing anything seek for Allah's helps and refugees. Ask for His forgiveness because He is the most Forgiven. If you feel there is no hope, believe in Allah. He always with us. He's keeping his eyes on us. And His angels, Raqib and Atid followed His orders, writing every single action that we did whether good or bad.


*The contents might not suit the title very well. My life is such in misery right now. I don't know how to express it. But what I knew is Allah knows and understands me more than myself. Because it is impossible for Allah to not know about His creations thoroughly.


Thanks for reading.
Jazakumullahu khaiyran katsira. :)

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